Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I woke up Friday morning after driving home the evening before to find that it was raining! As I've mentioned before, I love rain. And while I enjoyed the rain, I took this picture as the rain clouds swept away to reveal the sun and the grass was still wet. What a perfect, coffee-drinking, Henry-petting morning!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
- to finish my Islamic Studies paper
- to enjoy my last weeks here
- to call my grandparents
- to take more pictures
- to spend less money
- to pray more
- more sleep
- less coffee
- to run
- to pack for tomorrow
- to clean my room
- my coffee mug back
- to not worry about YAV
- to read the Bible
- to make the most of my time
- to relax
- to accept that I have more of everything, material and immaterial, than I'll ever "need"
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Leader: In our confession today, we are acknowledging what life is often like in an imperfect world. We are confessing those places where we, as the human family, are broken and need the light of God’s love and grace to break in and bring new life. Our confession this morning is a responsive one. I will make a statement, and then you will respond with “That’s how it is.”Leader: We find ourselves separated from our sisters and brothers.
Response: That’s how it is.
Leader: There are lines drawn between us that are racial, that are economic. (Response)
Leader: We live cut off from many sources of strength and power, and often feel that we cannot act. (Response)
Leader: So many things call to us, grab for our attention, that we find ourselves stretched to a fine, thin line. (Response)
Leader: Our time is fragmented, our lives are fragmented. We are broken. (Response)
Leader: Yet, in the face of all this, we seek out the joy of the resurrection. We ask again for new life given to us in Jesus Christ! (Response)
Leader: O God, giver of grace and new life, that’s how it is with our lives. We seek the power of your Spirit, that we may live in fuller union with you and with our sisters and brothers, and that we may gain courage to love and to act. Through Jesus Christ we pray, Amen.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Friday, April 4, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
What I've settled on is to go home for the summer and just be. I'll read and write, spend time with family, travel and say good-bye to friends, catch up on films I want to see, help my parents out with working cows when they need it, keep the house up to make it easier on them, run through woods in the morning, take plenty of pictures, eat healthier, cook, and relax. I won't be getting a job. I feel like 3 months isn't enough time to really commit myself to anything anyway and I've asked my parents to keep any tractor work to a minimum as I find it overwhelming depressing. I may even find somewhere to volunteer a few hours a week.
I don't really know what I want to accomplish. I feel like it will be a good transition from Schreiner to India/Guatemala (I will be volunteering in one of these countries for a year beginning in August). I'll be able to visit my friends a few times but also allow myself to be more comfortable away from them. I'll be able to spend time with my nephew, Josh, as well as my brother and sister-and-law. I'm just trying not to over-plan it by keeping my options open and as scheduleless as possible.
Also, because I had to miss a trip in February that the school payed for, we had to buy a refunded ticket from the university for $357. So, I'll need to find a way to spend that ticket before the end of August comes. Going off of an idea that my friend, Elaine, gave me, I think I may just fly up to New Hampshire for a few days and relax in the most rural bed & breakfast I'm able to find. I think that could be both fun and rewarding
So, now I'm really looking forward to the summer and what it has to offer. The only thing I really want to do is to just center myself.
What the film did most is make me feel hopeless. There are children all over the world hurt by war and the fact is whether we leave today or tomorrow from Iraq, these children's situations will be the same. They will still have lost arms and legs, will still be orphans, will still remember the rape that forced a child on them. The film crossed political lines for me. It makes the issues we argue over in American politics seem juvenile. Turtles Can Fly wasn't even anti-American; yet, I felt my fair share of American guilt. I remember the day of invasion and watching as that long caravan of American tanks went over portable bridges into Iraq feeling a sense of pride and purpose. What the hell was I thinking!?
Have we made life easier for children whose arms were blown of by mines America left from a past war? We haven't, and we can't. My other professor felt the director was trying to convey that when some things are done their effects are permanent. We see the war in Iraq as an event. For children living there it won't really ever end. They will still have the scars and miss their parents for the rest of their lives. What are we to do as privileged westerners?
As a Christian I find myself searching for the hope that Christ brings to situations like this one. To be honest, I haven't found it yet. But I'm still looking. On the way to class this morning I wondered, what, if anything, can I do to make a difference. I realized that I really do need to be more thankful for the totally undeserved life I have been given. Recently, I have been procrastinating writing a paper and feeling overwhelmed because "all" the things I need to do. Guess, what? My life's not difficult! It's a cake walk on sleeping pills. I feel like my call right now is to be more appreciative for everything that's been given to me and to use it more wisely. I know we all have a wider call to help unjust situations around the world but right now, I'm going to try to focus on what I can do here and now.
So, I went and watched the American Idol results. See what I mean, hopeless...